FINALLY got my computer back...
I didn't really realize how much I used it until it wasn't available to me anymore.
But anyways, it's been awhile, so here goes.

Today was a good day. I left school at 8:30 this morning to go to Fort Worth with our Spanish club. We went to a little place called Painting With A Twist! You start with a blank canvas (of course) and the lady at the front of the room instructs you on how to paint a masterpiece. It was lovely, and I want to go back.

Now I'm not really sure on who reads this blog, and at this point, I really don't care. But I'm about to vent about something that might offend some people, and honestly, I'm not sorry.
OKAY, just a little information, if you have only been "dating" someone for a VERY short amount of time (let's say about a week or so...) it is absolutely IMPOSSIBLE to be in "love" with them or "dreaming of marriage" with them and all that other jazz. I don't care what kind of crap you were fed when you were young, IT DOESN'T EXIST. I am not saying that love does not exist, I actually believe the exact opposite. It angers me when people say love is stupid and that it's not real, because it is very real. But love takes TIME and it's not something that happens overnight. It's not always easy and it insults me that people want to put that label on themselves when they don't have the right. You have no idea how downright ignorant you sound when you talk about your perfect future with this person that you barely know.
I could go on for awhile about how aggravated I am, but I'll stop now before it gets nasty...

Only about 8 more weeks left of my junior year... It's terrifying.

I think I had a lot to talk about but I lost it all when I got on my rant..
Oh well, it obviously wasn't that important.

Crazy girl..

Hey y'all. 
Spring break is officially over and tomorrow begins the last stretch of my junior year. I hope you guys are ready because I'm sure not. 
My computer is still sick so I'm informing you from my iPhone that as soon as I get a computer, I will spill my heart out. 

Everyone knows this song and everyone quotes it on facebook, but whatever. The lyrics are lovely. 

"Baby why you wanna cry? 
You really oughta know that I 
Just have to walk away sometimes 
We're gonna do what lovers do 
We're gonna have a fight or two 
But I ain't ever changin' my mind 

Crazy girl, don't you know that I love you? 
And I wouldn't dream of goin' nowhere 
Silly woman, come here, let me hold you 
Have I told you lately? 
I love you like crazy, girl 

Wouldn't miss a single day 
I'd probably just fade away 
Without you, I'd lose my mind 
Before you ever came along 
I was livin' life all wrong 
Smartest thing I ever did was make you all mine.."

Pray for Japan.

"This is what I've learned in my life: Headbanging is crucial. Growing up is hard to do. There's nothing wrong with wearing a dress."
-Hayley Williams

This is a picture of me when I was young in New Orleans at the French Market. Brenton, my dad, and I are going down there soon for JazzFest. It's going to be so much fun!

Anyways.. I have finally made it onto a computer..YAY.
I can't even remember the last thing I wrote about..
So here we go.

Tuesday night I went to the college to watch Brenton play basketball. When I got home, I noticed that there was a spot on the inside of my leg that was very sore. For the past several months, I've had these bumps on my leg- They never hurt, never itch, they're just there. But when I went to take a bath I noticed that this bump was incredibly tender and the skin around it was very red. But I just went to bed and hoped it would get better in the morning. But when I woke up, my whole leg hurt. The bump was still there, and the redness had gotten worse. But I just went to school and didn't think anything of it. When I showed my coach in 8th period she freaked out and made me go to the nurse. The nurse made me call my mom to get a doctor's appointment. I had no idea what it was. Some people said it was staph and other's thought it was just a bite. The doctor confirmed that it was just a bite and gave me medicine to make me well :)

On Wednesday, I got some news that really shook me up. A couple months ago I got some news that changed everything and I don't think it's a secret to anyone. The news I received on Wednesday had the same effect, but in a totally different way. This situation could be used in a positive way, to reverse everything that happened. What hurt the worst is that I'm very close to this person and I ended up being one of the last people in Peaster High School to find out. I'm assuming that's why I reacted the way that I did. Now that I've had a sit down talk with this person I realize that nothing is going to change. Nothing is going to get her back in school. Nothing is going to make her realize what's going on. Nothing is going to make her wake up.

But it's Spring Break and I'm letting this bring me down. Zac Brown Band, Kenny Chesney, Jimmy Buffet, and Charlie Robison are playing constantly on my iPod and I'm not worrying about a thing...

"Now I know we said things, did things that we didn't mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
But your temper's just as bad as mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love you're just as blinded
Baby, please come back
It wasn't you, baby it was me
Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though"

Everyone has heard this song, but I find myself listening to it a lot these days. We always go back to the people we love the most. Whether they apologize or not, we always forgive them.

I have a lot of stuff to talk about, but my compute is broken. Once that is fixed, I'll spill my guts.
Patience, please.

Hi there, this is going to be super lame for two reasons.
1) I haven't written in such a long time and you deserve an explanation, but that will have to wait.
2) I'm on phone.

I'm not happy with the direction of things at the moment, but I will learn to be content.