-I’ve spent a lot of time the past week thinking about everything I left behind in Weatherford, and I’ve honestly given a lot of thought to what the people still there think of me now. I understand that in high school, I was “the good girl”. I didn’t drink, I was always in bed before midnight, and I managed to maintain a relationship for 3 years. I used to let those “good” things define the person that I was because people always commended me for the choices that I made. I didn’t realize that there is so much more to me than always being the responsible one. However, when I got to college, things changed. Yes, I drink sometimes, I’m rarely in bed before 2 a.m., and I ruined an amazing relationship because I had to go to college 4 hours away. When things started changing, I noticed that people at home just couldn’t resist bashing me on the internet and running their mouths about all the things Shiloh does now that she would have never done 6 months ago, and there are a few things I have to say about that:
1) Every morning, I wake up in San Marcos as the same person I was when I woke up in Weatherford. There are so many things about me that make me the person that I am that haven’t changed one bit, things that are way more important than what is in my cup on a Saturday night. I’m a respectful, outgoing, nice person. My family is extremely important to me. I enjoy being alone. I’m sarcastic to a fault and I’m usually not afraid to tell someone exactly how it is. Sure, these things may seem insignificant to you, but it’s all these little things (and many more) that make me who I am. Like I said before, I am so much more than my Saturday night.
2) In reference to the “slut” that I’ve been called- you either have no idea what a slut is or you’ve been hearing stories about me that aren’t true. Talk about me all you want, but please, make sure what you’re basing your opinions on is factual.
3) *This is my angry point, directed at many people* Who in the world do you think you are to sit there and tell me that what I’m doing with my life is wrong and call me names all over the internet and basically claim that I’m throwing my life away? I moved 4 hours away from the only thing I’ve ever known and I make great grades in school, despite my “outrageous drinking habits.” Compare where you are in life with where I am, and see if you still have room to bash mine. No, I’m not saying I’m perfect by any means. I’m saying that you’re not either, so stop acting all high and mighty.
4) My life is a beautiful balance of chaos and order. And I honestly believe that if you see something wrong with my life, it’s because you’re not a part of it.
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