I don't have a choice, but I still choose you.

Hey y'all.

-Christmas is officially two days away and I can honestly say that it has literally snuck up on me. December has gone by way too fast, kind of like everything else this year. But I'm trying to enjoy it while I can. Brenton and I already celebrated our Christmas together, and it was perfect.

-For those of you who are keeping up with my life, I still have no idea where I'm going to college. However, at the moment, I am leaning towards UTA. Mainly because if I were to sit down and make a list of pros and cons on each college, UTA would definitely win the war. But who knows? I sure don't.

-As most of you know, this year has been rough for the girl's basketball program. 4 of our best players out with injuries. 2 of which are definitely out for the season. I am the only senior, there is only 1 junior, and the rest are underclassmen. There are only 11 active players in the program. To say that it has been, and will be, a tough year is a colossal understatement.

-Still on the note of basketball, all I can focus on is the fact that my last season is already 2/3 of the way over.

-On a heavier note, it's almost impossible to get on facebook lately without seeing news about the death of a young person. Now, being the sensitive person that I am, I hate the constant reminders that life is short and that it can be taken from you when you least expect it. But, on the other hand, I'm learning more and more everyday to appreciate the people that surround me. I'm blessed beyond belief and I take advantage of this fact on a daily basis.

-Subject Change. I need a job.

-With Christmas comes the New Year. It's hard to believe that another year has gone by. 2012 will bring so many things, but we can talk about that later.


"In a world that gets lost in making plans, just be my woman and I will be your man."

Hey y'all. I know it's been awhile. And I know I made a promise to write whenever I could and I'm being totally honest when I tell you that this is really the first time I've had time to think about what to write.. Plus, I'm writing this from my iPhone, so it doesn't even really count at a legit post. But I'm going to try to make it as legit as possible. (sorry for any typos)

-since my last post, I have turned 18. That's right. The big 1-8. Whatever importance there is, I haven't found yet. I'm in that awkward time of new age where when someone asks you how old you are and you forget you've had a birthday and you blurt out 17. But anyways, I'm now an "adult" I guess. But some exciting things came with my birthday. One of them being that I got a new car. It's a ford escape and I love it. Big thanks to my parents for making my birthday amazing. 

-As many of you know, I'm a senior and this is my last year playing basketball. Last week, my best friend, Sarah, hurt her finger in practice. She thought it might be broken, but she played anyways. Well, she went to the doctor today and he decided that she needed surgery and that she would be out for the whole season. It's been on my mind all day that my last year playing basketball will be spent without her. Sure, she'll be at all the games and practices and I know she'll be with me every step of the way, but it's difficult to imagine her not on the court with me. 

-And also, as many of you know, I'm seriously torn between University of Texas at Arlington and Texas State. Recently, I applied to both of their honors programs. I've known for awhile about my acceptance to the honors at Texas State, but I've been waiting for awhile to hear back from UTA. While waiting to hear from UTA, I decided that I would lean towards the college that accepted me into their honors, hoping to make my decision easier. But yesterday I received an email from UTA letting me know that I have been accepted into their honors program as well. Yes, it is good news, but i feel like I'm never going to be able to make a decision. 

--I would like to use the little remaining brain power I have to write my random letters to not-so-random people. 


- It is obvious that we are slowly separating and it makes me sad. We've been so close for so long that it's hard to imagine us not together. We fit together well and I just hope we don't lose that. 

- I think about you sometimes. Not often, but just enough to hope you're doing okay without your past. I've moved on from everything and I feel brand new, and I hope you feel the same way. 

- you, my friend, are fabulous, just like me :) haha. But really, you remind me a lot of myself and you're honestly one of my favorite people ever. 

- I love you more than you will ever be able to understand.