Just a simple day.

Had a great dayyyyy.
Woke up around 11 (really late for me) then just casually went through my day.
I will be without a car for a few days, not good. But oh well.

IM SO EXCITED FOR VACATION.
I really do love my family.

Then when I get back from vacation it's going to be almost school time :)
I am such a nerd, and it doesnt bother me at all.
I tried to check my schedule Online and it's all sorts of funky.

It has a list of all my classes with numbers beside them, but physics is just at the top with no number beside it.
So this is what it looks like:

Physics
1. Pre-cal
2. Computer programming
4. Spanish 3
5. US dual credit history
6. English 3 AP
8. Athletics

So I'm guessing physics is 7th? Who knows.
Haha.

Anyways, life is good.
:)

,

I don't really know what the point of this is going to be.
But whatever.

Everything feels wrong.



Is there an award the biggest screw-up?
There should be.

Some people=no help.

Between you and I.

Oh, hey.
I'm stupid.
Yeah.
Next subject..........





I got nothin.

Thought of the day:
It's amazing how there are some things you never forget.

It was one photo comment in 8th grade.
And it's forever changed my opinion of myself.

Stupid.

I'm an assassin and I had a job to do.

Hi.
This is another one of those blogs where I write random things to random people.
Here goes.

#1-
I had a blast hanging out with you yesterday and at church camp. I wish we hung out more often.

#2-
You have no idea how much you affect me. Most of the time I think you got what you deserved. But some of the time, it's not that easy for me to just think that.
You want to know the truth? Not a day goes by that I don't blame myself for what happened. I feel so bad sometimes even though there's always apart of me that knows that everything happened because it's just the way it's supposed to be. It's like having an angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other. I want to tell you what is on my mind. But I know you wont listen and you won't care.
I know you hate me.

#3-
You, my friend are nothing but trouble. You want a good life? Then start living one.

#4-
I don't understand you. You love me one second then cant stand to look at me the next. I try so hard to be perfect for you. You have no idea how hard I try just to make you happy. I want you to be proud of me but sometimes I wonder if its really worth it. I know you love me, and when I do make you happy, I can see the light in your eyes. And that's why I do what i do.

#5-
I love you so much. You are one of the two strongest women I know. I don't understand how you get up in the morning and deal with all shit you do. I know it kills you, and i know that i'm the only reason you're still hanging on. One day, after i graduate, I want you to go so far. Get your heart and run as far as you can. You deserve to be free.
But for now, stay here with me.

#6-
You are my everything. And I know how cheesy I sound when I talk about how happy you make me, but every single word is true. I get stupid and I can never talk correctly when I'm around you. I laugh like an idiot and I probably make the dumbest faces without knowing it. I've known you for awhile now, and I still get all nervous and giddy when i know I'm about to see you. It's like I'm in elementary school all over again when I'm with you, nothing else matters.
No matter where we go, and what happens, just know that i love you. You will always have a piece of me.

What a shame we all became, such fragile broken things.

HI.

I cleaned/organized my desk today and it was no surprise that it was a disaster. No wonder I lose papers and get zeros and all sorts of jazz that gets my dad mad at me. Hah. I found all the junk that all these colleges have been sending me and I put it all in a cute little binder and it makes me giggle that I was doing so much organization for all these colleges that think my name is "Shllon". Mhmm, I have no idea how that happened.

My daddy brought home 2 kitties today! I have no idea what to name them.. They're both girls I believe.
:)

I'm soooo ready for vacation. I love my family, and I'm so glad Brenton gets to go with me this yearrrr.

I'm so so so so so so so so so so so ready for school to starttttt.



Byeyyeyeyeyeyeyeyyeyeyeeye.

You give me love, love, love, love-

Crazy love.

Oh heyyyyyy.
I've got a lot on my mind. So I'll just warn you now that its going to be a lot of unorganized rambling. Sorry in advance.

I've been having weird dreams lately and I want them to stop. They make me think of people and events that I don't want to think about.

Basketball is almost over for the summer, thank goodness. I don't know how much more I can take.

Honestly, I have no idea what I want to do after high school. And I don't know if I'm worried or not. I guess I should be, but something is just telling me to relax.

I have no words left. Bye.




"I've become so defenseless, despite these weapons I wear"

Somewhere out there.

"You're falling back to me,
You're a star that I can see.
I know you're out there,
Somewhere out there.
You're falling out of reach,
Defying gravity.
I know you're out there,
Somewhere out there.

Hope you remember me,
When you're home sick ,
and need a change.
I miss your purple hair.
I miss the way you taste.
I know you'll come back someday.
On a bed of nails I’ll wait.
I’m praying that you don’t burn out,
Or fade away.

All we are,
Is all so far"

Oh hey happy. What's up?
I just got back from seeing Michael Buble with Brenton. It was AMAZING.

I'll write more later when I'm on an actual computer. Haha.

Byeeeeee.

It's only love that we're falling in.

Oh, hi. What's up?
In about 8 hours I will be leaving for Intensity.
I'm nervous, and I don't know why.
There are just some people I'm seriously scared to be without.

Positive thought-
I need a break from certain people.

It's on.

Oh heyyyy.
What's up? How's it going? How you been?

More random thoughts.

-less than 48 hours until Intensity. So excited. So nervous.

-around 2 weeks until vacation? I need it.

-I can't wait for school to start!

-some people just really kill me.

-I wish some people knew how they mad me feel sometimes. I don't think they do it on purpose. But still.

I think I'll be gone away awhile.

Happy late fourth. I hope everyone had a fabulous time because I sure did. I got another iPhone on Saturday and that made me happy.

I want to be happy, I really do. I have everything I could ever need to be perfectly content with life. But I don't know, I let stupid things get to me.

My dog ran away for the second night in a row. We found her but seriously, what's the deal?

I don't understand people. I never have, and I never will.

You can't stop my shine.

Yeah, I don't have anything to say.

I know exactly what I want. I know how I feel.
I just don't know about other people.