"You are the best thing that's ever been mine"
I hate Taylor Swift, but I love that line.
Her songs would be so good... If she didn't sing them.
Bahaa.

So what's up? It's been awhile.

School is officially underway and it's going to be a difficult year.
And for some reason,
I am so excited.


Is it weird to think about how things would be if something were to happen to you and you weren't around anymore?
I think about it a lot and i always wonder how people would react.
I wonder what kind of impression I would leave on people and how much they would miss me and if they would be miserable or if they would even care.
I hate thinking about it sometimes. I feel like I would be forgotten. Maybe not immediately, but maybe I would never cross anybody's mind after a few years.
This may sound so weird to you, but I picture my funeral and i try to figure out who would be crying and who wouldn't even show up. And those other kids that I never took the time to know, or even pay attention to. They would be there just to say they went. Just a few more faces to make me feel more loved even though I wouldn't be there to see it.
I'm not thinking about it in a dark way, just a thoughtful way.

On another note, my brain hurts and things are about to get real hectic.
Its going to be a long year.

Finally, I want to be everything that you could ever want in a person. I want to be your definition of perfect. I want to be everything you could ever need. I want a lot, and I want it all for you.